Satya - Truth It seems obvious what this second yama is asking of me. But once I contemplate a bit further I remember that this will include the lies I tell myself (eating just a little chocolate before bed won't give me heartburn)... and must be tied in with Ahimsa... So now I must be truthful while still being non violent in thought action or deed. This seems like a rather hard line to walk but by excluding negative thoughts by practicing ahimsa my truthful thoughts will turn non harmful. When I lie to myself I warp my reality and it causes disharmony in my life. Even when I recognize my truth I sometimes do not listen to myself. Then I am frustrated or upset with myself and my situation and it does no good to know that I caused it for myself. I will begin by trying to recognize the lies for what they are when I tell them to myself. Perhaps I will still follow the path of that lie but to know first will be the first step.
So I carted myself out to gentle stretch class on Saturday. It was really nice to spend some time breathing and meditating which I miss from the Vinyasa program I've been attending. I ignored my bioethical essay this weekend in favor of cleaning a bit in my eternally messy house but tonight I will have to buckle down. Luckily it is an essay not a research paper and I just have to email it to my professor by midnight. I told my mom last night that Nate was going to quit his job to go to classes next semester. I expected some resistance which I got but in the end they agreed that it was a good move!! Even Dave who got Nate the job was agreeable!
Thanksgiving is this week. Hard to believe that the year is coming to an end. It's so nice to see the family when everyone is on their best behavior.