Waking Sleep

So it seems that the schedule I have set up for myself is taking its toll.  I am constantly tired, but I am happy.

Monday 8-5 work, then home to cook for the week
Tuesday 8-5 work, then to class 6-10
Wednesday 8-5 work, then yoga class and seminar 6-9
Thursday 8-5 work, then yoga teacher training 6-9:30 (1 time a month)
Friday 8-5 work
Saturday 8:30-2:15 work at yoga desk
Sunday - 9-10:30 Yoga Class

Whew!  Plus other things like homework and family dinner, plus god forbid I would wanna spend time with my friends.

Okay so enough complaining since I am happy right now!  D and I are going to visit T who just had ruptured disc surgery on her neck a week ago.  Poor baby is hurting for sure, and beyond bored. 

I have decided to try and conquer my fears about going to new places by myself.  I need to change my expectations and beliefs about what is going to happen and how people are going to treat me.  This will be a huge step for me once I get there.
 

Crying at work...

So today I cried at work...  not a lot, or in front of anyone.  But it did happen.  I asked if people had heard about something and people for real laughed in my face and insisted that it was old news over and over, laughing at me, and I felt like an idiot.  Suddenly I'm in grade school again, i'm 6 and no one wants to be my friend, they just want to laugh at how dumb I am and make fun of me.  So I shut down, I told them not to stand near my cubicle to discuss it, which they apparently had done yesterday...  before it was confirmed...  but anyway.  I was so sad by how I was treated that I actually said outloud that my feelings were hurt, everyone ignored this and continued to discuss the topic I brought up but was dumb for thinking anyone would want to talk about.

 

raise your hand if you love your monthly hormone swings...

 

sniff sniff...

Day 1

Okay here it is.  I'm doing my first morning of work study.  Looks like they may want me to come reallllly early every week... I've done it before and for something much less important so when they need me I will be here.  The studio is quite and peaceful while class is in session and a hub of activity when class lets out or is about to start.  

I will have my first true Teacher Training session on thursday night.  I can not wait!  I will also have to figure out what night i'm coming in for my weekly class. 

And so i vacume the meditation room across the hall and take out some garbage and update constant contact for them.  I also channeled my bookseller experience and fixed up their retail book section.

LOVING IT!

Yoga teacher training!

I found my yoga teacher program! It's a really good one that runs for a full year and offers theory study as well as the asana (poses). Now to pay for it. My dad said he would give me some of it but he's in a rough spot because his cousin borrowed money from him... I emailed the studio asking if they do any sort of work study program to offset the cost of training. I am going in tomorrow morning to talk with the owner and see if an arraignment can be come to. I am hopeful that I can start this soon before school starts. I want to know the type of time that i'm going to have left for classes. I know it's going to be quite a busy two years but I need to get this done!

Back To It

School is done! Well the Associates Degree is done! I have no classes till October and that will be at a new school. I drug my butt back to yoga last night where the lovely stephanie m kicked it. I swear i've never sweated as much!! Today the soreness kicks in but it's worth it. I need to get my home practice moving again as well. Nate wants to clean the house tomorrow so maybe we will get the back room cleaned out and Deanna can move. Then her room will be my yoga room. I really want to get the drywall up in my basement, i'm sick of it being half finished. Maybe we will hold off on the back room and pull down some paneling tomorrow. Maybe we will sleep in and enjoy eachothers company. I guess anything could happen!



Today is my coworkers last day. There is enough food here to feed a herd of elephants!! It's all carbs and sugar, I may have diabetes by the time the day is through.


The guy who rents a room from us found out last night he has Lyme Disease. Which actually killed his mother... He must be sooo scared. I'm scared for him. I've been researching online but its actually quite hard for me to even read about lymph nodes and such without becoming grossed out. But it's not good news...


We are all heading down the shore this weekend so hopefully that will help to take his mind off of it. I'm excited to get away but dissapointed that we are not going to Six Flags because he's not well enough.


I am planning a trip to West Virginia in september to visit with my dad. I'm excited to get south again. I wish I could start looking for land. I am ready to get this next part of my life started!


For now I will be focusing on my yoga and by the time school starts back up I hope to have picked the place I will do my initial 200 hour teacher training.

The End and Start of the Semester

So... alot has happened since I wrote last. Nate and I celebrated 6 years together. I celebrated 30yrs of life. Classes ended, and tomorrow my new summer classes start... I got a whole 4 days between classes!!! I will be taking two courses since the orgional class i wanted was cancelled due to low enrollment. I was able to find two that would fit together and I will be done my Associates on June 27th! This month and a half will be tough. I will be going to class after work four days a week untill 9:30 at night. But it is ONLY 1 1/2 months so I decided to go for it! My yoga has and will continue to suffer due to my school schedule but I will be able to rejoin the flow after these classes are done. The accelerated BS program only runs 1 night a week, it will actually lighten my workload!!

Easter

Happy chocolate bunny day!


School is 1 month from over... I will have two summer courses then done with my Associates!! I'm done with school I can't wait to be done with school! Nate and I will be celebrating our 6 year anniversery a month from today! It went so fast but i'm so lucky he's here with me. I am visiting west virginia for fathersday and I do beleive that I will be meeting with a few real estate agents while I am down there! I have the itch to get moving!! If anyone stumbles across this who can give mortgage advice please let me know!

Yoga is calling me! I've had so little time, which i know is not an excuse we have to make time in our lives for the things we love (and unfortunately things we don't love also). I have noticed some pain while just standing in the morning... Perhaps I need to begin getting up early for yoga again! (I mean i know i need to do this but how much clearer of a sign do i need??)